Making the best tacos of Züurich and making frequent errors in life.

Sometimes people make mistakes , sometimes people make mistakes on purpose, or make them because they think is the right desicion. People sometimes make mistakes in their most dimportant desicion they have to make in their lifes, and they never get their biggest shot in life because of their false desicions. But desicions are nor right nor wrong, it just depend on the situation people are living in. I myself had make desicions that have opened the door , but I have also made desicions that have shutted many doors. Some wrong desicions I have made are not important , but a few I really regret making them. I have lost great carrer oportunities. I have lost friends and I have lost trust with other people. I can't fix most of the things I had done. Because of those mistakes I had lost focus on the things I wanted to achieve, shifting from one side to the other and trying to suceed on new thing I havn't been trained for, feeling like a renasaince man. And because of that many times I feel insecure, not so happy as I should be. Then for one reason or another  I realized that My life has been full of crazy and fantastic expericnces. I have made great products, great friends. I nave new and great values in life and have different perspective of  life  that made me see the value of each moment. But this experience that I aquire needs responsability  to use it, and you have to be clever enough to bring it into your heart and soul so it helps you build your personallity and thats a big issue. And thats hard to do, It is hard to make a ballance of every issue. And so much information, feelings, desires and experiences are difficult to put it in you and have the right balance. By now I should be able to have the energy and the intelligence to take the best and leave the worst. By now I havn't achieve it yet . Thats why I just mix good and bad and keep it in me. I haven't been able to bring energy to me to keep on going. Sometimes is hard to make yourself happy  despite being in the most democratic and politically correct country. I need to focus, I need to have a strict dicipline. I wish I could be in a zen temple for a year and start ordering my thoughts.
Some caos would be great to shake me up and to remind me that there's always a big battle to fight.
At the end maybe all of this is because I am not doing what I really want to do. and that makes me sad.

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