Estofado de borrego priceless

 ayer dando una vuelta por Zürich por nuestra nueva casa encontramos  unos nuevos rincones para conocer nuestro barrio. Encontramos ciertos espacios muy especiales que consideramos perfectos para  ciertas actitudes que tenemos los dos.
Encontramos un escenario hecho de agua   con gradas perfectas para elaborar una
batalla de barcos como en la época romana. Encontramos una vista increíble cerca de la Universidad de Zürich.

 Observamos que Zürich tambièn tiene sus construcciones feas como cualquier otra ciudad, Elefantes blancos a mi gusto.
La poètica de cada ciudad comienza con los edificios y termina con su sociedad.

 Sevi encontró un buen punto para hacer fotografías
Aquí en esta foto esta Sevi y Akachan.
Es importante conocer el barrio antes de adentrarnos en la nueva aventura!!

Hoy compramos  boletos a Mexico con KLM , y fue bastante alentador ya que nos costò nada mas y nada menos que 650 CHF el boleto. Nada caro para ir a México.
Perfecto para poder tramitar finalmente el corte umbilical de mi país.
Espero que todo salga bien.

Por otro lado el 14 de mayo vamos a Lisboa una semana, Me acuerdo cuando corrí el maratón de Lisboa en 1995 supliendo a un amigo que no podía correr.
Me acuerdo que no estaba preparado y lo corrí y fui el último en llegar.
Me acuerdo que la ambulancia estaba atrás de mi esperando a que cerrara y cuando llegue finalmente a la meta ya la premiacion había terminado y ya ni siquiera habia agua para los corredores, y tuve que hidratarme en el baño de un café . Casi me desmayo.

New house, new city, new way of life. That’s what I need, today, making arrangements on my life in Switzerland, thinking as always the decisions I have made, if they were the right ones or just another one of many bad decisions I have made.

Since I have been here, I have decided to make a Master degree on Interaction Design, which if I think about it It was worth this decision in many ways. I have met so many people, and seen the power of being a student. But that’s also a big problem. Student at 37 is not so normal, I`ve become a student in the ZHdK for a year now. I have missed job opportunities because of that. Sometimes I regret being a student and making that decision, but decisions are made at the moment and you think at that moment what better suits you. And at the end I’m really happy took that decision.

Now, things have changed and I have three options to do here.

1. - change to MA THEATER

2. - Finish MA INTERACTION DESIGN

3. Get a job.

This Friday I have a meeting with people on the MA scenography.  To see if they accept me or not.

I`m willing to pass that test but at the same time I`m looking for a job now. 

I have then a conflict that I want to keep on doing theater, but I have to be open minded in a sense that changes always bring changes and you have to change with it. There’s no change without the will to change.

And the sill to change visualizes even the extreme changes that are making something totally new.

And that’s what I’m kind of struggling with. I need to shut the last doors in Mexico and finally open the new ones in Switzerland. I still have not opened the new ones. I have not been brave enough to open them because in live you just have a few doors open, you cannot have many opened doors at the same time.

You have to shut doors in order to open new ones. And sometimes you have to walk through those opened doors to close them and then go to the next opened door.

opened doors means new experiences , new light, new perspective and new space, and is wise to bring old experiences to new doors, but not old memories and old habits to new doors, that doesn’t work.

So today is easter

Tuve uns regresion este fin de semana.
Desde hace eternidades el deseo de regresar a escribir  en el blog se volvio en sì mismo mi no deseo.
 De repente tengo miedo de escribir por que a veces pienso que lo que decìa antes tenia mejor consistencia.
hace tiempo que no escribo y hay parte de mi vida que se borrarà. Que no habrà evidencia de lo que hice , por que la memoria no es tan fuerte, y menos ahora con la vulnerabilidad dela mente enfrentando la nube virtual. La nube llega a ti, llega a tu cabeza , te nubla, y sigue su rumbo en la inmensidad del mundo.
Y mientras tanto uno ya no se acuerda ni de su telefono mismo.
Pero lo cierto es que este fin de semana tuve una cita con Friburg y con los Haymoz. Decidì ir a visitarlos y pasar un rato animado con ellos y en uno de mis nichos aun intocables por la gente. Los pocos espacios que quedan  fuertes en mi mente son de èstos rincones.

Making the best tacos of Züurich and making frequent errors in life.

Sometimes people make mistakes , sometimes people make mistakes on purpose, or make them because they think is the right desicion. People sometimes make mistakes in their most dimportant desicion they have to make in their lifes, and they never get their biggest shot in life because of their false desicions. But desicions are nor right nor wrong, it just depend on the situation people are living in. I myself had make desicions that have opened the door , but I have also made desicions that have shutted many doors. Some wrong desicions I have made are not important , but a few I really regret making them. I have lost great carrer oportunities. I have lost friends and I have lost trust with other people. I can't fix most of the things I had done. Because of those mistakes I had lost focus on the things I wanted to achieve, shifting from one side to the other and trying to suceed on new thing I havn't been trained for, feeling like a renasaince man. And because of that many times I feel insecure, not so happy as I should be. Then for one reason or another  I realized that My life has been full of crazy and fantastic expericnces. I have made great products, great friends. I nave new and great values in life and have different perspective of  life  that made me see the value of each moment. But this experience that I aquire needs responsability  to use it, and you have to be clever enough to bring it into your heart and soul so it helps you build your personallity and thats a big issue. And thats hard to do, It is hard to make a ballance of every issue. And so much information, feelings, desires and experiences are difficult to put it in you and have the right balance. By now I should be able to have the energy and the intelligence to take the best and leave the worst. By now I havn't achieve it yet . Thats why I just mix good and bad and keep it in me. I haven't been able to bring energy to me to keep on going. Sometimes is hard to make yourself happy  despite being in the most democratic and politically correct country. I need to focus, I need to have a strict dicipline. I wish I could be in a zen temple for a year and start ordering my thoughts.
Some caos would be great to shake me up and to remind me that there's always a big battle to fight.
At the end maybe all of this is because I am not doing what I really want to do. and that makes me sad.

If somebody read this and have any suggestions, please feel free to quote.

Werner just left us, 

4 am in the morning received a phone call. Going to Spital Glarus.  Sevi, Christine, Ida and I entered the room: There, he was lying on the bed, we cried what we had to cry, we spoke to him what we had to say, and what we didn`t had the opportunity to say. We changed his clothes for him to be more confortable. On his chest we putted flowers, on his right hand a Japanese dice. We said goodbye, last peek on this gorgeous man. We drank a coffee.

The person I admired during the 11 years of knowing him, 

He was an inspiration, a great architect, a gifted father to his two daughters, a traveller and a Wiseman.

I reflected myself mostly in his travellings and curiosity; we shared delightful conversations about different corners of the world, his vision in earlier decades of a country, my vision of the same country 35 years later.

We both loved japan; we both felt the inspiring craziness and holiness of a non-understandable place.

A main difference was that he showed me enduring lessons every time he spoke of an adventure he had   somewhere in the world. I don`t think I taught  him anything at all.

He showed me the way things are done. How a person can easily MAKE, because you have it in your blood, and not struggle to even think how I should begin to make it.

That lesson is essential, and because of that I am starting again to write this blog. Even if it’s not well written, but thinking about him and his love of life and family, and the lack of vanity and greed he had. I mirrored myself again, this time with my own reflection. I realized today that Werner is also in Me.

And he is helping me change myself to the good.

Lou Reed just died!! ;(

 The starting or the ending of a midlife crisis!?

Unagi sushi, in bimi japanese restaurant

12 CHF

Now I would like my own story, with my own ideas and really write it on the web. Reason, it would be just my diary of my living in Switzerland. I did it before, I need it to make now again.

Now it is autumn going to winter. I feel better all the time. In Switzerland, my emotions jump up and down because I haven`t finished being myself 100%  so much for adaptation  in my previous trips have helped me to understand life making me a simpler man, and here we are Studying my third master on INTERACTION DESIGN in ZHDK, trying to readapt my intellectual mind and personality to a country I still don’t understand. 

              Pigmeon nostalgically looking out at the rainy day

I have to understand that here in Switzerland it’s a bigger league and the sense of perception it’s important. It’s no easy game in the Swiss world. Partly because of the country`s arrogance, partly because I’m in my midlife crisis. It’s so crazy; sometimes want to be an architect. Sometimes a taco guy, sometimes a set designer, sometimes I just want to skateboard.

It seems I have rediscovered my lost teenager youth, or at least I have been making the things I didn`t do and wanted to make when I was a Young Turk

This week our friend Phillip Hartleif came to Switzerland from Hamburg and was helping us with the Tacos .Because Primo Tacos is doing fine, and we wanted to check it out. Yesterday we went to Zürich after the Taco event and we went on the langstrasse to look for a bar, I have not seen langstrasse so alive, it’s fantastic by night, I love it. We went to La Catrina to dance a while great music, I really enjoyed dancing. It`s fantastic. I have to do that more often.

 Today Sunday it’s a rainy day and the time has changed to winter time. Tomorrow I will go to Suzanne Vega concert, I saw her in Porto in 1998 I think. It’s great to see her again. A little aged. Well me too.

I will write this more often. Blogs make me squeeze my brain to become an output.

So today I went to see the workd theatre  in a place in switzerland,  this blog is not good , but is to start again my blog that for a long time   I left!!

strawberry Tiramisú and corn cake!!

TESSIN: We are living inside a virtual space , which  the unknown is the only way we can learn from ourselves.  If we add new spaces, new ideas and new  lands, then we can  conquer our stupidity of  going around trying to bite our own tails!

Salmon with tequila $  0.00   I cook it myself

It’s a difficult issue where I am now, I have two directions to choose from and so far I haven’t been able to choose. I´m letting time decide, but that’s not wise at all. The thing is this.

A) I can choose to study an MA in Interaction Design, at the ZHdK for one and a half years. That means to get to know technological gadgets and to develop a project regarding technology, interaction and scenography. So I want to develop Ideas I have in my head for a while now that involves scenography with technology , but not the usual way, but developing more into interaction with opera singers and set design, really exciting project. And I could meet many interesting people to start my career and doing what I really want, experiment with interaction and design, and art. I am sure I can develop something really fascinating, the problem is the money, and I have to find a part time job to help pay whatever we have to pay. But it will be amazing to do it.

B) To go in an architect office, they want to hire me; they make interesting projects in Europe. I can have economic stability, and I could make also connections, so to speak. I´ll integrate more in society, get a job, work hard in nice projects and do it right.

The problem is that I won´t do my dreams at least in one year, and ill work in an office, that I kind of don’t like it. But I will have more money to do whatever I want to do.

That’s my problem, School began this Monday , I’m going , and the job starts on the 26 of march, so I cannot make the decision, If it wasn´t for the money I would go for option A) but you know this times are crisis times and all that shit. Could you tell me some suggestions?? Could you help me decide??

Tacos de pollo, la takoteca Basel, 10 CHF  really bad!!!!

This New Year tells me that it will not be easy for various reasons; I have realized I have lost many of my sudden creation attacks, which they were superb in a sense that I was feeling alive.

But from now on I will be objectively, and talk about what I THINK, NOT WHAT I FEEL!

I have crossed many countries and many lives within my life, I have witness many aspects of live I have learned from It. My situation at this moment is as follows:

1 I live in Niederurnen a really small almost ghost town that compared to Tokyo this town would be just the size of SHIBUYA  station,

2 I’m trying to decide what to do, should I study? To get to know more people? And to evolve in something really cool? Should I work? To make money? That’s why we are in Switzerland in the first place! The ideal thing is to work in a theatre in Zurich, and be happy making set designs and maybe directing an opera. The question is how can I achieve that here in Zurich?  What path should I take? I honestly don’t know which path to take because maybe there´s no path at all, I have to carve my path to get there! which I find hard . But hard is not the problem, for things being hard, makes it more exciting, the problem is where to start?

mountain by Niederurnen 

night shot with moon light

I have a couple of projects I want to do, but the question will be how I get to get them done. I have realized I have excellent art Ideas, really good ones, but I have lost the way to make them, I suddenly became a guy that says things but not MAKE things. And that scares me a lot.

atelier in kochstrasse 18 zurich

I’m not young now, I have to act now. Because I’m starting to get isolated here, thank god I have the atelier at Zurich.  There I can be with people and talk about Ideas and clear my mind. Think about doing things in a good way and not cheating my mind with ideas they don’t exist.

IT’S TIME TO WAKE UP AND SMELL THE COFFEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!