Making the best tacos of Züurich and making frequent errors in life.

Sometimes people make mistakes , sometimes people make mistakes on purpose, or make them because they think is the right desicion. People sometimes make mistakes in their most dimportant desicion they have to make in their lifes, and they never get their biggest shot in life because of their false desicions. But desicions are nor right nor wrong, it just depend on the situation people are living in. I myself had make desicions that have opened the door , but I have also made desicions that have shutted many doors. Some wrong desicions I have made are not important , but a few I really regret making them. I have lost great carrer oportunities. I have lost friends and I have lost trust with other people. I can't fix most of the things I had done. Because of those mistakes I had lost focus on the things I wanted to achieve, shifting from one side to the other and trying to suceed on new thing I havn't been trained for, feeling like a renasaince man. And because of that many times I feel insecure, not so happy as I should be. Then for one reason or another  I realized that My life has been full of crazy and fantastic expericnces. I have made great products, great friends. I nave new and great values in life and have different perspective of  life  that made me see the value of each moment. But this experience that I aquire needs responsability  to use it, and you have to be clever enough to bring it into your heart and soul so it helps you build your personallity and thats a big issue. And thats hard to do, It is hard to make a ballance of every issue. And so much information, feelings, desires and experiences are difficult to put it in you and have the right balance. By now I should be able to have the energy and the intelligence to take the best and leave the worst. By now I havn't achieve it yet . Thats why I just mix good and bad and keep it in me. I haven't been able to bring energy to me to keep on going. Sometimes is hard to make yourself happy  despite being in the most democratic and politically correct country. I need to focus, I need to have a strict dicipline. I wish I could be in a zen temple for a year and start ordering my thoughts.
Some caos would be great to shake me up and to remind me that there's always a big battle to fight.
At the end maybe all of this is because I am not doing what I really want to do. and that makes me sad.

If somebody read this and have any suggestions, please feel free to quote.

Werner just left us, 

4 am in the morning received a phone call. Going to Spital Glarus.  Sevi, Christine, Ida and I entered the room: There, he was lying on the bed, we cried what we had to cry, we spoke to him what we had to say, and what we didn`t had the opportunity to say. We changed his clothes for him to be more confortable. On his chest we putted flowers, on his right hand a Japanese dice. We said goodbye, last peek on this gorgeous man. We drank a coffee.

The person I admired during the 11 years of knowing him, 

He was an inspiration, a great architect, a gifted father to his two daughters, a traveller and a Wiseman.

I reflected myself mostly in his travellings and curiosity; we shared delightful conversations about different corners of the world, his vision in earlier decades of a country, my vision of the same country 35 years later.

We both loved japan; we both felt the inspiring craziness and holiness of a non-understandable place.

A main difference was that he showed me enduring lessons every time he spoke of an adventure he had   somewhere in the world. I don`t think I taught  him anything at all.

He showed me the way things are done. How a person can easily MAKE, because you have it in your blood, and not struggle to even think how I should begin to make it.

That lesson is essential, and because of that I am starting again to write this blog. Even if it’s not well written, but thinking about him and his love of life and family, and the lack of vanity and greed he had. I mirrored myself again, this time with my own reflection. I realized today that Werner is also in Me.

And he is helping me change myself to the good.

Lou Reed just died!! ;(

 The starting or the ending of a midlife crisis!?

Unagi sushi, in bimi japanese restaurant

12 CHF

Now I would like my own story, with my own ideas and really write it on the web. Reason, it would be just my diary of my living in Switzerland. I did it before, I need it to make now again.

Now it is autumn going to winter. I feel better all the time. In Switzerland, my emotions jump up and down because I haven`t finished being myself 100%  so much for adaptation  in my previous trips have helped me to understand life making me a simpler man, and here we are Studying my third master on INTERACTION DESIGN in ZHDK, trying to readapt my intellectual mind and personality to a country I still don’t understand. 

              Pigmeon nostalgically looking out at the rainy day

I have to understand that here in Switzerland it’s a bigger league and the sense of perception it’s important. It’s no easy game in the Swiss world. Partly because of the country`s arrogance, partly because I’m in my midlife crisis. It’s so crazy; sometimes want to be an architect. Sometimes a taco guy, sometimes a set designer, sometimes I just want to skateboard.

It seems I have rediscovered my lost teenager youth, or at least I have been making the things I didn`t do and wanted to make when I was a Young Turk

This week our friend Phillip Hartleif came to Switzerland from Hamburg and was helping us with the Tacos .Because Primo Tacos is doing fine, and we wanted to check it out. Yesterday we went to Zürich after the Taco event and we went on the langstrasse to look for a bar, I have not seen langstrasse so alive, it’s fantastic by night, I love it. We went to La Catrina to dance a while great music, I really enjoyed dancing. It`s fantastic. I have to do that more often.

 Today Sunday it’s a rainy day and the time has changed to winter time. Tomorrow I will go to Suzanne Vega concert, I saw her in Porto in 1998 I think. It’s great to see her again. A little aged. Well me too.

I will write this more often. Blogs make me squeeze my brain to become an output.

So today I went to see the workd theatre  in a place in switzerland,  this blog is not good , but is to start again my blog that for a long time   I left!!

strawberry Tiramisú and corn cake!!

TESSIN: We are living inside a virtual space , which  the unknown is the only way we can learn from ourselves.  If we add new spaces, new ideas and new  lands, then we can  conquer our stupidity of  going around trying to bite our own tails!

Salmon with tequila $  0.00   I cook it myself

It’s a difficult issue where I am now, I have two directions to choose from and so far I haven’t been able to choose. I´m letting time decide, but that’s not wise at all. The thing is this.

A) I can choose to study an MA in Interaction Design, at the ZHdK for one and a half years. That means to get to know technological gadgets and to develop a project regarding technology, interaction and scenography. So I want to develop Ideas I have in my head for a while now that involves scenography with technology , but not the usual way, but developing more into interaction with opera singers and set design, really exciting project. And I could meet many interesting people to start my career and doing what I really want, experiment with interaction and design, and art. I am sure I can develop something really fascinating, the problem is the money, and I have to find a part time job to help pay whatever we have to pay. But it will be amazing to do it.

B) To go in an architect office, they want to hire me; they make interesting projects in Europe. I can have economic stability, and I could make also connections, so to speak. I´ll integrate more in society, get a job, work hard in nice projects and do it right.

The problem is that I won´t do my dreams at least in one year, and ill work in an office, that I kind of don’t like it. But I will have more money to do whatever I want to do.

That’s my problem, School began this Monday , I’m going , and the job starts on the 26 of march, so I cannot make the decision, If it wasn´t for the money I would go for option A) but you know this times are crisis times and all that shit. Could you tell me some suggestions?? Could you help me decide??

Tacos de pollo, la takoteca Basel, 10 CHF  really bad!!!!

This New Year tells me that it will not be easy for various reasons; I have realized I have lost many of my sudden creation attacks, which they were superb in a sense that I was feeling alive.

But from now on I will be objectively, and talk about what I THINK, NOT WHAT I FEEL!

I have crossed many countries and many lives within my life, I have witness many aspects of live I have learned from It. My situation at this moment is as follows:

1 I live in Niederurnen a really small almost ghost town that compared to Tokyo this town would be just the size of SHIBUYA  station,

2 I’m trying to decide what to do, should I study? To get to know more people? And to evolve in something really cool? Should I work? To make money? That’s why we are in Switzerland in the first place! The ideal thing is to work in a theatre in Zurich, and be happy making set designs and maybe directing an opera. The question is how can I achieve that here in Zurich?  What path should I take? I honestly don’t know which path to take because maybe there´s no path at all, I have to carve my path to get there! which I find hard . But hard is not the problem, for things being hard, makes it more exciting, the problem is where to start?

mountain by Niederurnen 

night shot with moon light

I have a couple of projects I want to do, but the question will be how I get to get them done. I have realized I have excellent art Ideas, really good ones, but I have lost the way to make them, I suddenly became a guy that says things but not MAKE things. And that scares me a lot.

atelier in kochstrasse 18 zurich

I’m not young now, I have to act now. Because I’m starting to get isolated here, thank god I have the atelier at Zurich.  There I can be with people and talk about Ideas and clear my mind. Think about doing things in a good way and not cheating my mind with ideas they don’t exist.

IT’S TIME TO WAKE UP AND SMELL THE COFFEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ice cream in Nagano, march 2012

300 yen 

On Sunday 23 of December 2012 I discovered a new sport, which enables patient and endurance, it’s so easy and yet difficult to achieve in a long distance track, it’s called SCHNEESCHUHLAUF of more simple snow shoe walk.  Let me tell you about this sport, it’s a damn great sport. It´s meditative, cardiovascular, no special skills needed.  It´s this kind of sport that gives a twist to trekking on the mountain. Our goal, Amden: mountain: Leistkamm

3 people gathered to make this adventure, although our track wasn´t more than 15 km long, it was long enough in a way, on how slow you walk through the snow. On the other hand it wasn’t that long because you get in a meditative trance, hearing your heart beat on each moment you take fresh air , stopping a bit to get inspired by the magnificent landscape, feeling how the sun paints on the waving canvas of the snow.

with anja a nice friend!

I was inspired by this sport, it’s not as exciting as ski, but is more meditative and you end up felling great after a good workout and a perfect time with yourself.

It is essential to have this kind of activities here in Switzerland, to get inspired by the country, to become more Swiss and not to get bored here!!

sunrise rolls    vietnam restaurant in Berlin  4 Euros

Last week I went to Berlin for 6 days to write along with my friend Ramiro Torres an opera about Godzilla, as expected Berlin was cold and cloudy. We meet in an apartment Ramiro rented for out time day, It turned to be  an apartment with gay decoration, although I am a gay friendly guy  I got impressed by such fancy artsy gay images,  which I found so fun and crazy to see, I guess  my gay friends will be always crazier than me.

To start writing an opera was a big task, Ramiro is a play writer, I’m a scenographer and director but we have never done this before, We took the idea of the project thinking that we had enough experience in our fields, and it would be interesting to write an opera of a monster that is 300 meters tall, spits fire and is indestructible. Wow, what a task how would we do that? we knew our disadvantage of not knowing  how to write an opera in the traditional way, would be an advantage rather than a handicap, and we had to decide how to make the opera , what would be the main story. 

We decided to base it in the first movie but with actual stories of the making of Godzilla, and not to base it entirely in all the movies.

While writing the opera every day, we had a chance to go to some places in Berlin, like a party from my friend Lisa Borges; she made a magazine and was the opening party of a beautiful well crafted magazine.   We also saw Tannhäuser the Wagner opera, in the deutsche oper, it was really perfect to see something refreshing and not so expensive, it was amazing the singers and it had 6 minutes applause, a wonderful production.  

I kind of walked around the city for a while looking at the nice west and east part of the city which it is a great contrast. I love Berlin because it always gives you surprises in every corner, you actually feel alive there, and it is fantastic the way Berliners are.

Lovely Berlin, I miss you already

jugo BOMBA all the fruits  plus different cereals, super king size, 

$ 45 pesos 

Hello life!!, are you strong??? Are you fragile?? I usually confuse life and Mother Nature, is it the same? Is it male and female? Got your message life, I got your message of your power to our fragile body and mind. I got ill, thanks for reminding me that. I got ill not because I’m a irresponsible human being, but I got ill because I’m not functioning well in my task of being a link in evolution, rather imp a self acting person that sometimes  when being confused shifts landscapes of minds. I´m a person that reacts in so many ways that me evolving personality is a spiral rather than a straight line. I don’t see the clear picture; I usually go around it, looking everything else except the clear picture. And that sometimes have give me some great pleasures and some frustrations of not doing what I really want. And as I grow older I realize so many things I have done, and so many things I haven’t, and that is how human works I guess, we are the only ones with high expectations and the only ones who can fall so high. Life , thank you for making me ill for a while, maybe this day I will realize how to get back in the natural system  of being a link of evolution, just like bees,

I was in Mexico for three weeks; somehow I got perfect sense of balance between warm energy and cold energy. Which I normally took it for granted. In Mexico, my cradle, I realized I have been shifting countries for too long now, but I also realized not everybody had been living in  8 different countries for more than 1 year, I love Mexico, and that love grew stronger this weeks, I also realized, that nobody in the world is guilty of not achieving my goals, I’m the guilty one, I’m to blame, I usually looked for excuses in individuals, then in people, then in societies, then in countries, and now, as I have the best wife anyone could give me, living in a perfect ( too perfect) country  which I could make dreams come true, and somehow  I’m numb, that’s why nature made me ill, so I  have a warning to do my things I have to do, not  tomorrow, not after tomorrow, today, today , today.

In any case, today my life begins with a new impulse, with a new emerging energy!!

I’m:

1 meditating early in the morning

2 having healthy breakfast

3 repairing my weaknesses

4 walk for 45 minutes

5 learn something new

6 one hour of set design knowledge,

7. Learning software

8 having great time with my wife

9 learning German, (Swiss German)

It is hard to write about what I really want, I always get back to self things, but now talking about life is in a way twee or corny, but, I learned in Japan that corniness is vital to have a balance.

And Japan is corny, Mexico is corny, Switzerland is super corny,